Should I talk about this here or not.. But I figured that it's not exactly a secret anymore anyway, so I might as well mention it here too. Since I apparently need to talk about this. Don't know why. (No, I'm still not pregnant. Oh how I wish that was the case..)
This all started a couple months ago, when I found a small lump in my right breast. At first I thought it was just because I was about to have my period, it's normal for the boobage to get a bit more lumpy and bumpy a week or so earlier. So I tried not to think about it, and decided to consider going to the doctor if the lump was still there when my period was over. Which it was. So I went. And I had a mammogram and an ultrasound. And the doctor didn't find anything. So I was relieved. For a while. Until I noticed that the lump had gotten bigger. Lots bigger. And it started aching. So I went to the doctor again. She was dumbfounded. Hah, doctors.
So I got called to an appointment with a surgeon at the hospital. Oddly enough, she couldn't figure out what was wrong with me, just by giving me an exam. Strange, huh? And here I thought all doctors are supposed to come with x-ray vision these days. Aaanyway, I went to another ultrasound this Tuesday. The lump, the huge lump at this point, is harmless. Apparently it's just breast tissue, no problem there. The problem, however, is in a spot just a couple inches above the lump. There is some kind of abnormal tissue there, that this doctor wanted to biopsy. Well great. I go in there still kinda hoping that the lump might turn out to be a cyst after all, and come out of there hoping that I don't have breast cancer. So that kinda sucks.
Stupid thing is, I've been having these strange pains in the very spot that they now biopsied, I just hadn't paid any attention to it, because I was so worried about the ever growing lump. What sucks even more is the fact that even if I don't have cancer now, I have a very large risk of getting it at some point. Because the tissue in that area is abnormal, so it might develop into cancer sooner or later. But hey, at least they caught it early, in case it turns out to be cancer. That's good, right?
And now that I've totally gotten myself all depressed I'm going to go have dinner and try not to think about this at all. Yeah, like that's gonna happen..